Saturday, July 18, 2009

回归

好久没写东西了,那些来看我部落格的人,对不起啊!
生活,还是那样,只是那份怨,淡了......
对阿,既然留了下来,也没有退路,只好往前冲了。
但在我心底,我,还没放弃自己喜欢的东西。
留下来不去学院的原因,除了家里,这也算是其一吧。


往后,若让我到了港新二地,我想
我不会再有犹豫的理由,
除非我移爱他人了,哈哈!


别地的游人这段时日也纷纷回归了,
数月不见,不知对方依然安在?
我想便是见了面,千言万语,终究只会化为一句,
你还好吗?


只有四字,但是,我想越是重要的人
越是分别久了,越是说不出什么话来。
对吧?
呵呵,好像很感触,或许最近看的书,影响了我吧!


回归的朋友们,我呀,这个人,是不太会说话。
什么嘘寒问暖,我不会。
只有四字对你们说,
别来无恙?


也对远在他方的慧雯说,
文具我会替你买的,别担心,
我一切都会很好的,
回不来,见不了我,没关系,
你待在原地,我会去找你。
或许不是现在,但我会去找你的。
因为我们是最好的朋友,不是吗?

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

放弃

无可否认地说,我很热爱华文,
中华文学,历史,不能说爱得发狂,但是是情有独钟的。

中六,不知道为什么我的学校有点可笑,
理科班的学生竟然不可以多拿文科班的科目。
哈哈,可笑可笑!
所以,为了做个孝女,(华人百德以孝为先)
我毅然放弃,弃文从理。
唉.......谁让我不爱当老师呢?
谁让我生在这块无法令我身展拳脚的土地?
我开始有了杜甫和袁崇焕的感觉了,哀哉哀哉!

有些朋友说,你不读华文了吗?
好可惜.........
有些说,这是现实,忘了你该忘的吧!
我又怎么能忘得了,我又怎么忘得掉?
以前对华文的冲劲,怎么都转移不了到别的科目上。
这一点上来说,我觉得自己有点像痴情的杨过。
可是现在的我,务必要做那个陈世美。
毕竟我还是姓陈的。

悬壶济世,我不是不要,其实,也算是一个理想。
但是我,的确想要执笔渡世。
或许许多人呀,觉得我这个人,怎么老发穷酸梦?
哈哈,怎么?
穷酸?有什么大不了的?

自古有鲁伯,弃理从文路,
今有女杨过,为情而割爱。
欲如公羊生,穷酸潇洒路,
奈何不如祖,却如其孙哀。
愧对温师傅,有苦心难诉,
愿天怜苦吾,驱走世美途。

Monday, April 27, 2009

诛仙

诛仙,网络游戏者应该十分熟悉这个名字吧!
鬼厉,陆雪琪,碧瑶.....、
我没玩诛仙的游戏,但,我看了它的小说。
萧鼎先生的写作风格一异其他玄幻武侠大师之风,
对话不多,情感场面不冗长,却清楚带出了个角色的内心情绪。


碧瑶....老实说,她和张小凡之间没有带给我太大的印象。
反观陆雪琪,却很清楚刻画了这个角色。
爱张小凡,却不能不杀鬼厉,
恨魔教,却恨不起魔教的那个人儿,
她的一句我不愿,成了经典,不能爱鬼厉,却愿意为他付出一切。
鬼历嘛.....我也挺喜欢这个人的。
他内心的煎熬和挣扎,叙说得很真切。


只是,这本书依然有它的缺点,应该说满足不了我自己吧!
武打方面,依然不够逼真,难以令人想象其画面,
玄幻式武打,还是树下野狐略胜一筹,

但故事结构方面,萧鼎先生却来得更吸引。
在情感方面,双方都不错,但我现在是在说诛仙,
就只说诛仙好了,



鬼历,碧瑶还有陆雪琪三人的爱情
可以算是这本书的主线。
毕竟小凡,从诛仙古剑那一劈开始,支持他活着的
便只有那份刻骨铭心了。
他对碧瑶,也许是有爱,爱得挺深,也有着一份亏欠
毕竟金瓶儿说过,他怕自己忘了碧瑶,
怕忘了她的那份恩情吧?

至于陆雪琪,又是另一番了。
他们二人的关系可以说是相当微妙,
陆雪琪,毫无疑问,是深爱张小凡的。
鬼历,中间隔了个碧瑶,又不同了。
我想,张小凡对陆雪琪除了感动,也有一份爱意的,

从种种细节上来分析,我是觉得如此,不知你们又怎么想?

他对陆雪琪,或许是后日展生的爱,
碧瑶却是十年不能的忘情。

除了爱情,作者描述人类正邪也写得不错。
以小白带出焚香谷的内乱及虚伪,演绎出外表光线,内政腐败
青云个部的不和,天音寺的和善,人类对长生的执著。


所以大家如果有时间,不妨看一看此书。
的确值得一看。
上述只是我个人的意见啦!

Friday, April 10, 2009

Job Memory.

A friend of mine asked me to write in english.
Haiz.....Although I don't really want to.............
But what to do, she is my ............errr......special friend....hahaa
I had given up my job recently, errr.......To the truth, its quite relaxing without a job.
At least, you don't have to care about your alarm clock,
You don't have to worry about what to wear for work,
and you don't have to see your "boss" pull his/ her face in front of you,
and still have to stand there, trying to stay calm , so that you won't give him/her a direct hit on the face.

But, I do miss some of my " colleage"
I work in a kindergarden as a......I don't know, but I really didnt held an exact post in there.
Students may call me "teacher" or "jiejie" .
Other teachers, except Teacher Mi, refused to call my name,
instead, they called me "chan". -.-

The kids, woa...... A nightmare......
I swear I will never ever work in a place with such a lot of kids in it.
Some of them, huh, spoilt b
rat I should say,
At the begining, I tried to stay calm and peace in front their brutal act.
Once a while, I scolded, but not in my usual way.( Friends of mine should know how I look when I am trully in anger)
But, one day, the canon inside me just lauched.
And they fired at a boy,who is not very naughty but fulled of curiousity.
But he just touched my nerve, because I hate people just simply touch my things,
moreover, he spoilt it.
My friends, you may imagine what I looked like then.
I remember that that time was the daily reading time,
nearly all the students and teachers were there.
My fire power was strong, I think it was just similar as the rocket laucher.
The boy, pity him, but I can't pulled back.
Some teachers who thought I am a " gentle " type person, shocked.
The place is quiet except my voice, raising, and raising.
Haiz...my image break like a shattered glass.
But once I have showed my fire arms, I never keep it.
I started to fire those I think is acting more than a kid suppose to.
Truly, working here, I felt that,
I was grateful to have a strict mother.haha.

Okay,I admitted some of them are really cute, especially a little boy.
We called him " kai kai", his face is cute, his acts are just like a baby.
Although he is already four.
His brother, who is six years old, likes to talk with me.
I wonder why.
Unlike his brother, he is not cute, but handsome.
He likes to give me presents which will make me in a state of miserable.
papers, rubber band, paper folded aeroplanes........
I guess that's what a kid assumed as a present.
I do wished he was born twelve years earlier.

In the school, there's a lot of teachers,
although its not that big.
The teachers are all nice, always create a harmony atmosphere in the workplace.
However, there's something.....err......not that good between them.
They always leave our boss behind.
And, they always talk bad about our boss.
.............
Our boss, well, she maybe a bit stingy, and err, customer obeyed type of woman.
But actually, she is not that bad.
I think there may be some misunderstood among them.
But I dare not to say anything, because, I am just a rookie there.
No authority for me to speak up anything.
Well, maybe this is just how workers interact with their boss.

The teachers are all very nice.
Yea... I am telling the truth, 
Teacher W,
I like her,she is that type of person that do anything as long as she thinks she is right.
And she never refuse to speak up for herself.
an incident happened on her, a sad one, but she didn't collapsed.
I think she is is one of the bravest lady I had ever seen.

Teacher S, arrr, I like her existence.
She scoled, yelled at the kids, and she saved up other teachers energy.
haha, she is very ......cute I should say.
She is the same type of people with Teacher W.
Young, fulled of spirit, courageous.
I like to talk to her. With her, I filled relax, as if I am talking to a friend of mine in the school
No barrier.

Teacher T, and Teacher A,
both, are really good to me, really nice women.
i love talking to them too.
 And I don't feel the atmosphere that I usually felt when I spoke to the elderly.
They looked after me alot. Thanks to them, I feel warm while working.haha

Teacher K, a good mother, I should say.
She always worry about her son, who is not arrogant but stubborn.
She is a nice lady to talk with, but
sometimes, I was scared to cooperate with her due to the stupid hands I have.
My hands, err....just don't suits for art and craft.
haha, ya, it's true. They may know how to draw, but 
they are just too stupid for doing handcrafts.
Moreover, they famous for spoiling and screwing up things.
Haiz......Miss K, instead of thanks, I would like to say sorry.
Sorry, for being so helpless.
Camie is a nice name, wish you have an adorable baby and
Justin will be a good brother. (Jamie, I have faith in her)

Teacher Ml, nursery class teacher.
With her, we have a lot of funny things, funny conversations
for our some " crazy" acts, like driving.
She is nice too, like other teachers acts toward me.\
haha, thanks for always driving me home.
And miss P also , thanks, 
although we seldom chat, but she is very kind,
always sent me home. 
worry about my safety.
Other teachers like calling her "Ah pat" "Ah pat"
A cute name, and the cute boy followed.

Last , Teacher Mi, and Aunty,
teacher Mi, thank her a lot. She, is the one who find out I am stressful at the begining.
She is good in comforting the children, as well as comforting me.
i like working with her, I have no tense.
Aunty , Teacher Mi and me are the cantonese group in the school.
aunty, once I found out she spoke cantonese, 
i won't stop.
Ther, I speak several language,
English with Teacher s,Ml,R, and boss maybe sometimes.
Mandarin with, Teacher W, K, T , A and boss sometimes.
Cantonese with aunty, Teacher Mi,
Hokien with Miss P and J.
Aunty, a good cook. Learn a lot of things from her.
We both have great feelings for culinary arts.

thanks to all of you,
it's been a great time working with you all.
As time pass, we never remember each other.
But at least, in our life time,we had spent sometime together.

Monday, April 6, 2009

悬壶济世

不知从何开始,我想当医师了,
是啊,不知为什么,也不
知干嘛了,
也许是疯了吧,
是啊,就像陆雪琪,
也许,一早就疯了........

去医院,说是观察观察,应该说,是考察胆量吧!
到了我该去的医院,很幸运,我这个路痴,遇上友人,
经过指点,总算没迷路。
同校的朋友不多,却有三人与我同组。应该说,挺幸运的。
佛学会主席,女童军首领,还有铜管玄乐重要人物都和我同组呢。

看病房,没事,只是偶尔有呻吟声,还有小儿哭泣的声音。
本该呆在病房一个时辰的,
结果护士姐姐用了不到半小时,接下来的时间,我们都在那里当花瓶。
医师们好忙,进进出出,脚步不停,
有的微有忧色,有的眼皮下垂,有的依然精神奕奕,神采照人。
后来,在护士的鼓励下,我们访问了不是太忙的医师,
给了负面的答案呢!
放弃吧!医师不好当。
要牺牲很多的。

在乎吗? 当然,在乎。
但肯不肯牺牲,又是另一回事了。
我的组员有一个女子,头发短短,个子不高,
可一张嘴,很厉害。
英文国语流利的不得了。当医生,兴致勃勃。
佛学主席,铁了心当医生。
其余的人,也是志向其远。
只有我懵懵懂懂,不知能否胜任。
医师呀,不是其他。
一双手,可一治活一人,
亦可要了人的性命。
一个错误,可以当场至一人于死地。

死人,我不怕,
血肉模糊,也不足畏惧,
只是,那颗放不下的心。
放不下,放不下.........
执着吗?后悔吗?

不懂,明白的,应该是时候该醒了。
梦,一定要有。但是,梦是要醒的。
醒了,行了。
向前走,悬壶济世吧!
也许花晓霜的路,不是那么难走呢。

Thursday, March 12, 2009

成绩

今天可是大日子!
spm成绩放榜耶.......
拿成绩的经过,我不想再提了,反正说来说去,也就是紧张。
我有的朋友成绩非常好,全扫一等。
我替他们开心,当然,我也是人,
所以,开心之余,我有些羡慕。
羡慕是客气话了,妒嫉会贴切些呢!

我的成绩吗?比上不足,比下有余,
有些人听了,瞪大眼,觉得我的成绩理因不该如此的差。
有些人则觉得很好,有些没反应。
不错,听起来是蛮好的,
11A 呢!不错啊!
是全甲,但是败在冒了四个甲二呢!
我讨厌他们!
妈妈听了,面色如何,我不确定,
毕竟我没千里眼,电话隔了好远,如何瞧见脸色!
但是从语气来说,我听出来,她是不太开心。
爸爸反应如常,问我要不要礼物。
我,已经没那份讨礼物的心情。
姐姐带有鼓励地说,不错呀!
哥哥则说字体得些好看些。

我知道我不该在埋怨,理由是我的成绩的确好过好多人
但是,我就是不满意。
心里空荡荡的,说不出是喜是悲。
前途茫茫的,看不见光亮的出路在哪里。
好乱,好乱......
好与不好,现在来说,都已没那么重要了。
庆祝免了吧,我只觉得现在再努力,
方为上策!
考好的友人,恭喜你!
不太理想的友人,也加油!

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

考车

今天终于到了考车的日子。
哎.....虽说我拼命告诉自己,
别怕别怕,考车而已。
失败了,大不了从来便是了。
可是,我依然一夜没睡好。
晚上七点多上床,睡得很香,醒来,以为已是隔一天,
谁知道,只不过是晚上十一点多。
翻来覆去,学车的一幕幕在脑海中闪过。
结果只好拿出沧海来看,越看越精神。

隔天,也就是今天,没有特别爱睡的感觉。
或许是太紧张了吧!
嗯,妈妈一大早把我送去了驾驶学院,
那时人不多,jpj的人也还没来,
我却心跳如狂。
在老仪的鼓励下,是没那么紧张了,
但是那颗心,就是不听话。
排队,登记,拿号码,依然紧张。
在这时,我认识了一位巫裔女子,
也不能说得上如何认识,因为,我连她的名字都不晓得
饶是如此,我们鬼使神差的聊起天来,至互相鼓励。

出路,还差点要了陈某的命。
考官老骂我慢吞吞,还拼命说要让我重考。
吓得我面如死灰,拼命求饶。
但是,恶魔面具下,她是有一颗慈悲的心。
终于以刚刚好的分数让我过关。
感恩哪!

考上山的时候,我又遇见那位巫裔女子。
一样的,我们又互相鼓励。这次多了位印裔婶婶。
巫裔女上山了,我排在她后面,
她的车到了线,油门很响,不知怎么,
就是下不去,还要往后溜,她踩住了break,试图阻止悲剧。
在山下的我,拼命为她加油,
但以衰神自居的我,真的帮不上什么忙。
她失败了,为她感到不值,却不能做些什么。
我呢,呵呵,竟然一举通过。
世界上真有奇迹,衰神的命运,不一定衰。

到了办事处,平日载我来的巫裔叔叔问我考得如何,
我说通了,我开心,他也好像很开心。
办事处的大哥哥也问了同样的问题,
他也笑了。想起上回在他面前为了学车一事落泪,
此时,有点儿尴尬。

回去的路途上,最后一次和司机叔叔交谈,
真的,这一学车的过程,我虽然有不开心的,
但是,却让我知道了许多事情。
和异族同胞在一起,其实也挺好的,
反而有时候,觉得同族的人,未必能如他们好。
我失败的时候,是这些异族友人的鼓励,
反而令我信心大失的,却是同族的人,令我好生感慨。

各族均有好人坏人,终不能带着有色眼镜来瞧人。
要数,我们的祖先其实都是同一种人,
即使如此,是什么人又有什么关系呢?
只要是好人便好了,管他是什么人。
和这些异族友人的短暂友谊,确实,令我领悟甚多。